If you had a free pass to go back and change anything in your past, with the promise that it would only affect you positively, would you do it? And if so, what would you change?
Please first read Sometimes Sweet's post on this. It was not only honest but beautifully written. It left me with tears in my eyes.
This was a really hard prompt for me. I thought about it all last night. Thought about it all throughout my work day. I've finally just come to the conclusion that as cliche as it sounds, there is really nothing I would change.
Sure, there are a million little things I'd love to take back or change - words I've said or actions that have hurt others or hell, even actions that have hurt myself (the hair dying incident of 2006 comes to mind). But I couldn't think of a major moment that I would do differently. In the end, all of those big, heartbreaking, humiliating moments turned out ok. Yes, there was shouting, grudges held, physical pain, emotional devastation, utter confusion, complete embarrassment but I'm better because of it all. I have to remind myself that there were also lessons learned, apologies made, and lots and lots of growth within myself and that's what is truly important.
Oh gosh! The hair dying incident reminded me why I do the skin test first! I like your sentiment though, the growth within is a good way to look at it.
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